I am really down these last 2 days. I am getting more and more depressed about not working. I am so stressed out. BF is not working yet either and I am getting really mad about it. He isn't even really looking.
My CC is maxed out thanks to medical insurance and rent and groceries, I can't pay all my bills, I have almost no money left in any of my accounts.
And I am never going to be able to afford a house.
I feel like poo.
Feeling really down
July 14th, 2008 at 05:21 pm
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Keep submitting resumes and focus on what you can do and ignore what others are not doing. ((Hugs))
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You'll get a house. It just takes more time. You aren't going to find a house for less then 450k. It's going to take time.
You just have to pound the pavement, shake those trees, etc.. You CAN do this!!!
This too shall pass.
July 14th, 2008 at 08:47 pm 1216068462
I seem to remember you said he had some social anxiety. I think there are some jobs that don't require too much interaction--late-night proofreader at newspapers? Freelance writer (if he doesn't mind phone conversations sometimes) for local publications? Janitor? Data entry?
PS: Your student loan balances may be high, but I've seen much worse on credit cards. Don't beat yourself up if you have to take on more of that at this point. You know how to do the right thing, when you're able, to get yourself back out of that hole.
I wish I could offer more concrete support. All I can do is wish you the best and come read your entries when you need to vent.
take care,
CJ
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July 14th, 2008 at 09:28 pm 1216070926
Keep your chin up! We are rooting for you! Definitely check into the temp thing, and keep encouraging the boy as well. Get out of the house and enjoy the sunshine. Might make things less depressing. Good luck!
July 14th, 2008 at 10:01 pm 1216072909
But personally, I think alot of things happen for a reason, and perhaps you haven't found just ANY job because YOUR job is right around the corner. In the meantime, do you have anything you could sell, just to make ends-meet? Your bio says you sell books, maybe more of that?
I'd definitely mention something to your BF about finding a job. It's hard work, my BF just went through that and finally found something that works for us. Just don't do it when you're an emotional wreck - go take a walk, calm down and get a little cheerier... then tackle the subject.
Good luck, we are all here for ya!
July 15th, 2008 at 12:44 am 1216082652
When I get that way (often) I do the minimum required to keep myself out of the depths. I try to sell more stuff. I eat stuff from the pantry. I go for a walk 9although I don't feel like it) or eat one really wonderful peach or something.
We're all here for you indeed!