I know paying down debt makes me feel good. I know b/c when the car was paid off and the CS fee was paid off I felt like doing cartwheels. (I didn't though. Have you ever seen a 330 lb woman do cartwheels??? Not pretty).
But lately, it has just been depressing me. I hate that the extra money I get from selling things or freelance work has to go to debt. It frusterates me that I keep paying, but it never seems to really go anywhere. I want to use the extra money for other things.
But, here's the kicker. I don't want to use the money to buy more things. I have been a packrat my whole life and I have finally hit the point where I said ENOUGH! NO MORE CRAP! I have way too much stuff. I realized I could get rid of half the things I own and would probably be much happier (hence the yard sales and ebay sales lately). Plus, if we want to move, #1 I ain't luggin all this crap to a new place and #2 we won't have room in a new place for all this stuff.
I think the stuff frusterates me even more because I know all this crap came from using my CCs and buying things I didn't need. In my mind, CRAP = DEBT.
So, what do I want to do with this extra moeny I keep getting? Save it. I want a fully funded EF (my goal is $3,000). I want to save for a trip to Vegas to move the rest of The Boys stuff out here (another reason I need to clean out!). I want to save for a house. I want to save for a new wardrobe after my surgery. I want to save for the follow-up cosmetic surgery I'm going to need (health insurance won't pay for that one). I want to save for The Boy to go back to college. I want to save for a vacation overseas.
What do I notice about all these things I want to save for? Most of them are for "experiences" (cosmetic surgery, traveling, school). A few are for material items, but those are big ticket items, and in some ways, a necessary want (new wardrobe, a house). None of them are for crappy items I will forget about and lose interest in after a few months.
Mom always told me one day I would "grow up" and grow out of the stage where I wanted the inconsiquental things. I guess 29 is my "grown up" age. Glad I didn't have to wait til I was 89!
Paying and Saving - What I Really Want
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Sometimes I have to remind myself to touch base and remind myself where I have come from, instead of looking at where I are going. I cannot go back and change the things that placed me in the situation I am in today, however I can change today and tomorrow. I am just greatful that I made the decision to change sooner rather than later. If I had not, I'de been in an even worse situation today.
Keep on trucking! :-)
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