When I first came on here 2+ years ago, I had a good job and good pay. I was really good at saving money and was really paying down my debt (car loan, 3 CCs).

Even with all the money problems the last year or so, I have had that same mind set. I think it is time to change that.

I know I need to get rid of my debt especially the big ATTCC. But I need to stop beating myself up cuz I don't have extra for debt, when I am having trouble making rent.

When I get things together and get back on a good money track, I'll worry about paying down the debt. Right now, I just need to focus on making it by day to day.

Hi everyone. Well, as many of you know, I have numbness and tingling in my left foot and right foot and leg, plus a tight band sensation down my right leg and foot from my MS. It is making it hard to balance and walk, and is really uncomfortable.

At my neuro's request I had an MRI done, and it showed active and new MS lesions. So today I started IV steroids. I went today and will go every day this week, for a total of 5 days, 1,000 mg PER DAY. When I was on oral steroid the beginning of Oct I was taking 60 mg per day, now I'm at 1,000 per day.

Turnes out this current problem is part of the mini-attack I had with my eyes in the beginning of Oct. The steroids I had then just quieted it for a bit, but now it is back with a vengence.

I know this is a financial blog, and this post does have a financial point (I promise!). My insurance company covers the IV treatments at the cancer center, but I still have a co-pay. $15 each day I am there. So, there is $75 out of pocket this week. Plus the $2.99 for the oral steroids I picked up at the pharmacy on Sunday and I am now being told I don't have to take cuz I am on the IV treatment. Ans then, there is the fact that the cancer center where I am getting treatment is an hour away, so I have 2 hrs of freeway driving each day this week...A good chunk of money goes to filling up the gas tank at least twice this week, if not 3 times. Great way to start the new month! Grrrr...

I think I might apply for disability. My MS is getting worse and I am having trouble getting to or even being able to work.

I'm having another attack; this time my right leg and some double vision again. I need a cane to walk whenever I leave the house. I walked around the mall with Mums today for about an hour, and was so tired and wiped out I came home and slept for 2 hours.

I haven't been able to work for the last month (with temp services). I am trying to do more work from home with my freelance editing, but I haven't been able to get any new clients. I still do the tarot readings once a week, but last week I brought home $11. Not enough to live on.

I had a new MRI on Thursday. It shows new and active lesions, which means my MS is progressing. The meds I am on is supposed to stop that, but either I haven't been on them long enough (started Feb 1st) or they aren't working for me. So, the change that soemthing will happen in the near future is raised.

Next week I have to have 5 IV steroid treatments. Each one will last about 2 hours, and I will have one a day. Hopefully this will clear up my legs issue. But there is no way I can work next week, either.

So, I am thinking of applying for disability. My Dr is not a fan of it, and I'm not sure if he will support my decision, so we will see what happens. I hate the idea of it, but if I can't work, what else can I do?

I am also applying for food stamps. Looks like we will get aroun $200 a month. Thanks to all I have learned here, we can work with that.

Well, it's Novemebr. Only two months of 2008 left. And I am nowhere near my 2008 goals. *sigh*

Right now my 2008 goal for the rest of the year is just to make it to 2009. Money is tight and I am sick again, so I have not been able to work. I've been out of work for the last month. I've been able to do my readings, but nothing else.

Bills are piling up, and it looks like everyone is getting homemade gifts for the holidays.

Ahh well, maybe if I just don't spend this month, I can do it. I do have an $1100 check due to me this week, so that will help a lot.

(Trying to stay positive)...